Wednesday, October 14, 2020

Reminiscence of an Empty Soul

 Hey there,


Yes, it’s me. Do you still remember who I am? 

I’m that girl in the grey hoodie and denim shorts you met at the bar.  Remember that night when we met? I was the timid one.  The one, who wanted to go home early, and who was very quiet the entire time.


Remember exactly 2 years ago? 

We went and had dinner with a couple of your friends and then we spent the entire night until early morning just talking? We melded together perfectly back then.


It was kind of ironic that we practically grew up side by side.  We went to the same school and we even had the chance to work in the same place, but we only found each other 2 scores after.  It was serendipity as you said.  It was surreal.  It was fate.


It all fell into place, and it was like everything was planned by the cosmos.  We were happy.  All we do is banter and smile.  We had the occasional petty fight, but then we would take a moment to ponder on what we were arguing about and laugh it off.


We were a team.  


Now, we play the same sport, we wear the same uniform, but it is as if we are strangers.  What happened? 

Was it all a dream? Was I? Were you?


What became of that power duo we tried so hard to build? What was our kryptonite?


You smile... I smile.,. We pretend we are okay...


We never argue anymore, but we barely talk...


I would rather have those nonsensical moments rather than this long silence...


2 years ago, you saved me from a deed that I was planning.  I had the razor ready, and I finally had the courage to use it, but then you handed me a glass of cold lager and I gave breathing another chance...


Now, I am strong enough to live..to face everything because of you...


But why this?


I am alive, but empty...

Even more broken than before...


You were my salvation, but then because of love, you became my downfall...



Credits:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKfOwffq5Xs